Hey people who finds my life interesting

Well Im fine, Going to leave for Hungary tomorrow. Anyway I am finding it hard to keep up with any cosplay events or anything in that direction. Story isnt going anywhere. I should be busy with it, Marriage is comming up and I just found out what a asshole the cosplayer known as Ichigo or Wesly is. I knew already from others what an ass he can be, but I still thought. Lets be friendly. But no he couldnt even give me a hint of Humane or a heart in this case than the human body he lives in. That I try says more about me than it does about him. Not that im the perfect angel or gods gift to man.
Still Work has ended and I came to the conclusion that I am going to abuse my friendship with two certain people who totally disgrace man kind by wanting to fuck every boy in the world. Two friends of mine already met these two idiots. After I found out the things they said or asked about one of my dear friend or René's best friend I got totally pissed off. They reached my limit. All they know in conversation kind of deal is to talk about either Drugs, Money and Sex. The lowest people I know. Still my way of "Abusing" Their friendship is to use them as transport for groceries or to go to a gay event we cannot reach. These idiots do anything for us cause we know they hope to get into our pants. Like I said, They only have drugs money and sex on their mind.
The not so inportant stuff....
Well I am also looking for flash animators. Mainly cause I am Planning on finnishing my story soon or at least get more into finnishing it. And I want to animate it. I want to start an animation Group. or whatever you call it. It seems like fun and I know people would love the idea. Its a Four season story so whoever is up to it PM me and I will be glad to hear what you have to offer. I rather have someone in the area. Mainly cause its easier to work with someone who lives closer by or at least within the countries The Netherlands Or Belgium.
My Modeling career isnt going so smoothly, but I hope to reach something some day. And I dont care what people say I do not look like Daniel radcliff. So people who read this already know who I am I assume. Which is so weird that some people actually asked me if I was the Harry Potter. I said friendly No im not lol. If I said I was that would be ripping people off. Plus I have a rather unique lip lets say that. So there is no possible way that he can be me.
My stress level has been reaching its limits these days. I keep having extreme panic attacks. Woopy doo. I keep finding out that my past is haunting me more and more. My real father and flashbacks of back then come and go like a drug addict running to his dealer every now and then. My feeling like im stuck in a pothole in the ground makes it worse. I am just affraid im getting no where in life. Not like I hate my life. I love my friends and family. Its just It feels like I dont really have a goal but to be stuck doing pillow factory work till I die or retire. I really hoped my factory would go bankrupt cause I just hate my work there so much. I really need another job. mainly the reason I am part time model.
I also work for volunteer by the Sensoa group in Belgium. That means I pass out stickers and condoms for a good purpose. We try to find people who would help the fight against HIV and AIDS. And we try our best to help the people by giving advice and such. I also passed out condoms in the Netherlands this last monday to support a gay chat website. mainly called gaychat.nl haha. It was fun And two good friends of mine came and helped me and the group and all got allong really well with them. They are sweet people. It was a fun day. I'd love to do that again. Still im going off to bed now. I should really be writing my story in stead of spilling my guts to a bunch of unknown people and or my closest friends here on dev lol. Dont worry people. If I were not to write it here I would just blather your head full. I think its better to have people read my mess than to hear it. One thing Im good in is making people upset by talking.
Im off packing happy days people. Cause God loves you